We live in an age where
Everything is staged and
And all we do is fake our feelings...
Jon Bellion
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'Good morning!'
Tobi turned over, his face right inside the soft pillow. He wasn't ready to rise just yet. His mum never lets him enjoy his sleep she always comes when his dream gets deep and interesting.
Wait a minute, he was supposed to be in a hotel room, was he still dreaming or where did that voice come from?
His eyes went wide open. He turned to the other side in an instant and there she was, standing beside his bed hands on her hips. She was cladded in a white chiffon gown, her hair packed neatly behind her neck.
'Are you going to rise now or you are going to lie down all day and stare?'
Her almond shaped eyes made his heart melt. She is so gorgeous he finds it so hard to get mad at her.
He was supposed to be mad at her but here he was drooling over her. This is so embarrassing! He rose in one swift movement and walked to the small fridge adjacent his bed.
Oh great!
He was in his shorts and Jo was right in the room. He felt so Unclad that he wanted to wrap the blanket over his body but it was too late now. His bare chest, back and thigh were all there for her see his build.
Back to what really matters to him. She needs to know that he wasn't the least pleased with the drama she pulled last night but he doesn't know how long he could hold onto the string of pride in him with her looking so gorgeous.
He took a bottled water from the fridge and gulped down the drink. The chillness burned his throat and he felt a small chunk of ice travel down his throat. It was so uncorfortable. Why the hell did he even walk to the fridge this early? Why does her presence makes him so nervous he couldn't control his thoughts?
'You dissapeared yesternight. I wondered where you left for that you decided not to let me know.' She said sitting down on the king sized bed comfortably like it was made for her.
You acted like I was nothing! Like I wasn't there! I was embarrassed yesterday and you expected me to stay and be tortured watching you flirt with some other guy. Are you really kidding me?
That was the planned speech only God knows where,
'How did you get in?' came from.
'Your door was opened and I don't really think I need to knock or alert you I want to come in. So I just let myself in.' She replied. 'You are acting weird. Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed?'
Was she trying to act like nothing was wrong when everything seems so wrong? Wow!
'Nothing is wrong. I am just feeling a bit sick.'
'Sick?'
'It's nothing. I'd be fine.' He hurriedly said.
'Does that mean you won't be able to make it tonight...'
Yeah! I can't. I want to go back to Lagos. I am sick of seeing you throw yourself at other guys.
'...You don't have to worry I'd get someone else then..'
'I am fine...' That came out so wrong
He felt like he screamed that out. But does it matter. Anything but her being with another guy for one night. He quickly cleared his throat
'I will be here till that stuff ends. I would be fine...' He watched as Jo smiled a knowing smile. Did he fall for her once again? He hopes not.
'Okay then.' she said rising abruptly 'I am going to get dressed now. I hope by the time I'm done, you'd be too and we would go grap breakfast. I am so famished!' She said the last statement in whispers as she trotted out of his room, smiling as she did.
Everything about her is so cute.
Well, he doesn't know why he can't get her out of his head
But why does she finds it so hard to apologise. Was she so used to him that apology is so out of it when it comes to them? Or is it the number of years they had known each other that warrants a 'No apology' relationship? Or was he propably getting a bit paranoid about it all? Was this how things were supposed to be and he was the one overthinking it?
Why can't he even summon up the courage to ask her out, once again? Is he really so scared she would turn him down, once again that he had chosen muteness? Maybe she won't turn him down like she did ten years ago? Maybe the reason she turned him down ten years ago was because she thought she was too young to be in a relationship.
Ten years ago, Jo was fifteen and he was sixteen.Their age difference was just a few months. Jo was the foster daughter of his grandpa's neighbours. The three years he spent at his grandpa's were the years whose memories he cherished the most. The years he hated and the year he loved.
While he stayed with his grandpa he got to know Jo. Jo's foster parents were the busy type and they were always away. Despite the number of maids they had, they felt she would be secured staying with their neighbour, Tobi's grandpa. It was as though the duo had lived together because Jo's parents were seldom around. The duo go to school together, came home together. They know virtually everything about each other.
Tobi regarded her his sister at first until those feelings change. What he felt for her wasn't a brotherly love anymore. It was something greater. He always wants to be with her. He always wants to see her. He always feel the urge to hold her. It took several weeks of planning what to say, several days of making up his mind to tell her but later changing his mind immediately he was in front her, several hours of battling with his mind on whether to go ahead or not to go ahead. They were in school when he finally forced the words out of his mouth. Her reply totally shattered him.
'OMG Tobi! You are just like a brother!'
Just like a brother.
He can't forget that statement.The statement he even heard in his sleep. How could he possibly forget.
Ever since then, he had been scared to approach her, he avoided her and it was like she did too. They didn't go home together that day and she never showed up at his grandpa's place for days. When he got worried he scared her, it was then his grandpa made him know she came around when Tobi wasn't there to say her goodbyes. Her parents want her to study abroad and she already left.
She didn't even say goodbye to him.
They never saw each other again until earlier last year. It was by his grandpa's grave. He was there with flowers as was his routine every July 3rd. He felt a palm on his shoulder. It was Jo's . She heard his grandpa died and she was there to pay her respect. Blah, blah, blah. A week after they met, she started dating one bloated face guy, when she broke up with that one she dated another....
'What are you still waiting for?' It was Jo. She poked her head inside cutting his chain of thought. She was in a T shirt and a denim trouser.
'In a minute!' He rushed to the bathroom to have his teeth brushed. You can't keep a lady waiting. Not a lady like Jo actually.
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